Indescribable;;

Monday, February 26, 2007: a new start

school has finally started for me! it was really weird in math today because i didnt know anyone in my lecture and the first time i sat in a class with so many people, and there were guys in my class! (okay sorry i've been in a girl's school for like the past 11 years, its just really weird okay!) i kinda had trouble deciding what to wear today because 1) this is uni, you dont have uniforms 2) people really dress up here, even for school some wear dresses 3) there's going to be one or two thunderstorms today (correction: its raining already). but i decided on shorts and a polo. (:

and boy am i glad my house is so close to uni. this means that on my 3 hour interval between classes today i can come back home and do whatever until the next class :D which is pretty awesome.

summer retreat was really good in gearing me up for a new life at uni. being united in christ, friendship, common goals, love, prayer, responsibilities, humility, fruits of the spirit, life in the spirit. i think the bonds made at summer retreat was the best part (: and ooh, i made bridge friends! ahaha, we played bridge all of sat night to the wee hours of sunday morning and boy, it was fun :D

but i think its time to settle back down for school and hard work. math today was crazy. we started on lessons already and heh :S not good. i wonder why i'm in math 1010, its like this !!!!!! &(&^%!$(&$!!!! i dont really understand the proofs but yes i think i will and can survive! by God's grace i've pulled through high school and now by His grace again i will pull through uni (:

a shout of praise.
8:37 AM

Thursday, February 22, 2007: ocf summer retreat

i was looking through deborah's (my housemate) chord book while she was choosing songs for summer retreat, and as we were flipping through i saw many many songs, some old ones, which i loved and havent heard for in a long time, old new songs which we sang at chapel in secondary school, children's songs which we sang in chapel at primary school, songs we hear in church now. anyway, one of the songs that i came across had very beautful lyrics.

One thing i ask, one thing i seek
That i may dwell in Your house, O Lord
All of my days, all of my life
That i may see You Lord

Hear me O Lord, hear me when i cry
Lord do not hide Your face from me
You have been my strength
You have been my shield
And You will lift me up
One Thing I Ask - Vineyard

i dont really know how this song goes, but the lyrics expresses some of my feelings now. about how i've gotten so dry in my walk with God. but i trust that God will lift me up like He did before. and He will lift me up into His loving arms, and i can find comfort in Him. i'm very thankful for summer retreat which starts tmr evening after o-day at uni. its rather timely to realign and focus on my goals for this new year. i pray that in this new semester, this new start and change in school, i will be a vessel that God can use, someone who dares to be different and set apart from the rest, a follower and disciple of Christ, and be someone full of passion to serve in His ministry in school.

i worship You Almighty God,
There is none like You
I worship You O Prince of Peace,
That is what i long to do

a shout of praise.
11:48 PM

hiatus

How long, Lord, Must i wait?
Nevermind child. trust Me.

a shout of praise.
5:02 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007: updates

so esther called me this morning to ask if i wanted to go for the ocf murdoch freshie bqq today, cos lindy (ocf murdoch prez :D ) needed some "older" ocfers to welcome the new ones in. (: was quite a fun day today! got to have my first sausage sizzle of the year PLUS meet all the new ocfers, what more fun can i get in a day?? :D i didnt really know any of the ocf murdoch people either cos i'm from ocf perth (the ocf centre for uwa) so it was nice getting to know them :D i met steffie who reminds me so much of charlotte! the way they talk and the way they act are so simliar that its strange! haha. must get raymond to agree with me on this.

murdoch starts school tmr! oh my, i'm having quite mixed feelings now about school and whether i can adapt well. thankful God provided me (yes! yet again! (: ) with someone who is taking exactly the same course as me, PLUS i get along very well with her! haha, her name is tracy, and she was from mg, she was my dance senior (she's just one year older than me!) and she came here after sec 4 to do yr 11 & 12 so it was quite cool. she comes to my church as well! and i found out last last week about this, i think :D so yes, God came to the rescue yet again! i mean, comm/econs people are so rare, there's only about 70 people doing this course (according to tracy - but of course the no of people doing comm or econs is more, they just choose to combine their degree with something else) so the fact that tracy, someone from my church in perth and was from mg, is doing exactly the same degree AND same majors, AND the way we study is exactly the same, has to be too much of a coincidence! :D was really glad to find someone :D

i cant wait for O-day. i cant wait to pull people into ocf! i think there is potential this year to get more than 10! hopefully 20 :D if we can reach it. yay. must keep praying for ocf to grow in numbers, so that we can reach out, build up and send home potential disciple makers! :D hurray.

yupp. i'm going to go to andrea's house today for more cny celebrations! (: oh yes, forgot to mention about cny celebrations at church yesterday, shall do it all in one shot when i get home on sunday! yupp, kristi's going for a sleepover at andy's! :D hurrah. ooh, and, guess what!

DRIVING LESSONS START MONDAY!

AND,

DEBS IS COMING BACK ON TUESDAY!! :D:D

(so i wont be alone at home anymore :p)

a shout of praise.
2:57 PM

Thursday, February 15, 2007: i feel dry.

have been rather busy with my life in recent days. everyday is just a rushing to and fro, doing this and doing that. i dont really have time to reflect on things anymore, let alone blog about it (my thoughts on things). everyday i wake up at funny hours when my msn contact count is less than the number of fingers you have. life sure is different outside of boarding, nothing seems to be structured anymore. and i dont have periods of nothing to do (seriously nothing) anymore. now when there's nothing to do i find something to do. in boarding when there's nothing, there's nothing. blogging now is not second nature anymore.

i dont know if that is healthy. there isnt any output for my emotions. not that i had any to begin with - nowadays my mind is just a blank.

mmm.

things are going to be different this year. very different. i just hope i can adapt fast and well enough to uni.

and i am excited for uni life. i'm just not sure about the actual work load.

i mean, economic history??

come on :S my history sucks, big time.

i think i need to start to appreciate things in the now, not regret the past and worry for the future. God already led me to the now, and He will prepare the way for the future. i dont have to over think about anything. i need to be living in the now; not wishing to be left in the comfort of what i know, not hoping things will turn out the way i want them to be.

pray for me, as i grapple with the meaning of my existence - God's purpose for my life, and what i can do with His plans for my life.

a shout of praise.
10:26 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007: i wonder..

sometimes i wonder if i actually do leave and commit everything into God's loving hands. i wonder if i have become to independent to be dependent on His helping hands and His grace.

a shout of praise.
6:52 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007: lift up your eyes

Planetshakers wrote this song called "Lift Up Your Eyes", and i love this song because of the pure wonder of being still in the presence of God. how the sheer beauty of God just stuns us, how God's holiness is so captivating, that you are so mesmerised. life with God is so promising, that when trouble comes your way, you know all you have to do is just lift up your eyes to God, be firm in your faith, you know God will come to the rescue because of the magnitude of His presence. God is faithful. God is holy. God is glorious. God never ceases to amaze.

I see heaven before me
Angels passing around me
Here i stand in awe of Your beauty
Captured by Your holiness

Lift up your eyes all of heaven's in worship
Angels rejoice and the clouds will be filled
With the wonder of Your name
With the wonder of Your name
The train of his robe fills the temple with glory
Heavenly hosts fall before him in worship
Crying Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God Almighty
Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty

a shout of praise.
10:50 PM

today!

i'm trying to login to olcr.uwa.edu.au to set my timetable but it is down! i'm really scared that i dont get the time table i want. haha! but oh well (: its ok if i dont. oh man, cant wait for school to start! i'm getting pretty bored. went to the airport with glenna yesterday to fetch esther from the airport! yay. haha. i feel so happy cos she's back. now there's more people to look for to expel the boredom. hehh! and its not just esther thats back, the other esther (from ocf curtin) is back too!! and so is jason... lol. anyway. PEOPLE ARE COMING BACK! its so exciting. :D :D

oh man, i just read the olcr webpage. haha, it says "The On-Line Class Preference Registration system is NOT a "first come, first served" system. It will record everyone’s preferences for their class times and store the preferences in a database." bah. i wonder why i didnt read the website first instead of waking up so early. i bet no one's awake yet ):

anyway. (: today's a fun day! going uwa-exploring today, and after i've got a party to attend! :D yay. i will be busy bee me (:

♥

a shout of praise.
7:47 AM

Monday, February 12, 2007: moodswings suck.

i think i have problems with my moodswings. i can be angry, moody, happy, crazy, smiley, worried, envious, anxious, lifely, dead, selfish, stoned and more, all in one hour. i get easily provoked, easily humoured, easily impatient and more.

God help to mould my character, mould me into the person you want me to be.

i feel so sorry for the people who have to put up with me.

a shout of praise.
10:20 AM

Saturday, February 10, 2007: birthday celebrations (:

was quite a good day today! (: woke up bright and early (actually it wasnt really bright today, it was quite gloomy but anyways!) so me and mydad went down south to the canningvale market to stock up on fruits so i have something to fill my stomach with next week. but when we got there, the fruits were so expensive that we decided to go to subi market instead. and so we made on BIG round back. haha, and after everything, we went back to the house, and GUESS WHAT, my dad suddenly said, kristi lets learn some driving. and i was like !!!! hahahaaha (: yes i got my learner's permit a few days ago. haha. driving is COOL! although there's like heaps to remember all at once (manual car), its FUN! its hilarious actually, i couldnt stop laughing when the engine was revving up :P it was funn!

for lunch, glenna, judy, james, lindy, jeannie, geraldine and katie celebrated my birthday at fasta pasta at innaloo :D was yummy food although it was really filling! went back to katie's house where they "surprised" me with cake, and with some presents :P (it wasnt really a surprise cos i figured they had something planned haha! it was quite funny really). but it was alright. (x i really enjoyed myself though! i was quite thankful already that i had people back in perth to celebrate my birthday with, not to mention presents!

i must really thank God for all that He has provided me with, last year i thought no one would celebrate my birthday with me, but He surprised me with three wonderful friends who plotted a surprise for me in the BH (ie, jeannie, hannah thornton and aliya) and really awesome O level results for me, plus my swimming team came in first for my races (: was a really memorable day last year. and this year, He has done it again! after seemless procrastination about having no friends to celebrate my birthday with me this year, i had:

(1) countless smses, instant messages, myspace comments, tags and friendster comments wishing me happy birthday

(2) friends to celebrate my birthday with + a cake and presents even if they werent really surprises

(3)my daddy and my brother to have dinner with me.

was really a great day, even though i complained about myself being tired about having to thank people online. that must have sounded quite ingrateful huh? but i'm thankful all the same, i just complain about everything and seem so, lifeless about anything nowadays :P

oh well. i'm 18! what can i say. i dont think this year is any special from the rest. 18 is going to be just as good as 17 was, and as 16 was and so on. i believe this year is going to be different, because a life in the Lord is always different, ay? mm, the only difference is, drinking is legal now. mmm. but then again, its not like i drink alot in the first place so :/ haha. oh well!

i had another driving session after dinner! (it starts to get dark around 8.30 here, so its ok) was really great! i can change gears, juggle 2 feet between 3 pedals, keep the engine running while bring the car GENTLY to a halt, do a u-turn, slow down, start up, squeeze between narrow lanes, mange the left/right indicators! not bad for a first day! haha, even though i jerk sometimes. and my speed is like, less than 30 kmph. hahahahha! yes! i'm afraid of accelerating! but hey, a step at a time! i cant stop laughing when i accelerate though. i feel ticklish all over :P cos of the engine's vibrations.. hahahaha, its quite funny. you should see me drive. then again. haha, maybe not :P you might get scared. hahahahha. i so love driving noww! :D :D

anyway, here are pictures to entertain you, i have myspace comments to reply! ta.

group photo!! jeannie, geraldine, me, judy, glenna! (x

silly group photo with the cake :D

james, me, lindy :D (so 全家福)

my birthday cake - caramel gold mudcake from the cheesecake shop!

geraldine, judy, glenna, me! we blend in with the trees :P

jeannie, me and geraldine posing at the water fountain :D

in katie's house after birthday lunch! (x

katie, glenna, me, judy@ cottlesloe beach yesterday (:

guess what! i got my learner's permit! :D

my pretty painted nails :D

a shout of praise.
6:50 PM

Friday, February 9, 2007: not in the mood.

i dont feel like blogging. ):

news:
going to the beach today with glenna and judy! :D quite excited.
went to meet dee,xiao,sag,nat ytd at harbourtown and gosh, sag can sure shop! she bought something in every shop!
dad's birthday was yesterday!
my birthday is tmr!
dad's leaving on sun.

i painted my nails.

that is about it.

a shout of praise.
8:43 AM

Wednesday, February 7, 2007: random (:

i love it how when my mind is set on one way of thinking, God comes and sorts out my thinking, and helps me think in a more peaceful, Christ-like manner.

hurray for God. ♥ (:

a shout of praise.
8:50 AM

Tuesday, February 6, 2007: movies and other things.

today was a very good day (: i managed to get a job with student cafe under judy's recommendation, or at least i think i did! sent in my timetable, and i start working when school starts, only because the owner's going back to malaysia. oh well, even though i'll be bored for the remainding of the holiday, i guess its a good time to really rest well and get ready for school. (: had to do some rearranging with my timetable as well, so that my working hours are more flexible. judy says the pay & friends there are really good! since its an all asian hire and owned place, should be quite exciting! i should brush up on my chinese too, cos the owner speaks chinese and my chinese has really degraded to like sub-zero standard! but i guess its ok, cos like i really do understand, i just dont speak it that well anymore ): thank God for taiwanese drama series! :D hehe, so my understanding of the language still works!

anyway, was supposed to go shopping with judy and glenna today, and then go for some student guild meeting to represent OCF as a club. but instead of shopping we ended up watching movies and eating nandos for dinner! was quite a fun time. bought ice cream after the meeting and went back to glenna's to hang for abit and watch another dvd - singapore dreaming. was a pretty good movie in my opinion, although sometimes abstract and has a lack of drama (i mean after all its a movie,the climax didnt really peak and all), it really epitomised the struggles of the lower/lower-middle income people in singapore e.g. non-graduates, and how that forces them into a hunger for money. its also a movie about wanting to achieve success eg the 5 c's, wanting the best in life, yet not working hard for it, relationships, miscommunication, coping with the stresses in life, and how at the end of the day, what you treasure more.

i guess for me its a really good eyeopener, and i feel really appreciative of what i was blessed with, a good education, and now i'm in uni already. i feel thankful for the salary my parents draw each month, and how we dont really have any diffculty in actually paying debts, and fighting over wills and all, its enough to get by in semi-luxury, at least compared to what these people depicted in the film are going through. i'm thankful enough. and i do feel guilty of always complaining when i dont have enough to spend.

i was just reflecting on the whole film: you might go "wahhh, that guy's so irritating, i cant stand him, he's such a bum!!", "omg, i cant believe that girl's so stupid, she's like this desperado, paying for all his expenses, when they're not even married!". i dont feel its wrong to feel this way cos i did, and the movie's made in the way to evoke this response. i think only when you look at things in the big picture, then you would realise the mistakes that these people are making, the foolishness of their actions. when you're actually in this situation, life can be very different and the choices you make might not be the best one. in the christian context, you might even go, "oh man! these guys are so silly! chasing after $$, whats' more important? God or the cash?" i think, i really need to challenge myself to think that if i were in their position, would it be as easy to get by as i do now? would i be having the same comment about cash and God, the way i do now? i guess not.

but one thing i've learnt today, i realise as i type this entry, is the magnitude of God's plan. He has the plans for our lives. He's the one looking in the larger picture, He knows whats to come, and what we have already gone through. He knows when to correct us, He knows our folly, He rejoices in the right paths we choose to follow, and only He knows how to save us.

God knows the best way to live my life to the full potential. (:

in other news, i'm going to go shopping with judy tmr for her uni clothes (summer sales (: ), catching up with sch friends on thurs, and beaching with judy and glenna on fri, and on sat GUESS WHO'S BIRTHDAY IT IS!! :D:D having dinner with daddy and joash i think! ♥

i think i could get used to uni life (: its getting interesting.

a shout of praise.
9:15 PM

Monday, February 5, 2007: Es Teler's! :D

yo people, guess what i just saw at northbridge today! my favvv indonesian restaurant! :D wonder if the food's anything close to the singapore one :P so exciting! i cant believe they have a branch in PERTH! like omg, its gonna be one of my favourite haunts if it tastes good! i crave happy soda! ((: ♥♥♥ hwahwahwaww!!!!

a shout of praise.
4:06 PM

Sunday, February 4, 2007: little prayers to God

God let me always be reminded of Your mercy and grace, let me never wander away from Your presence.

God thank You for Your unfailing love, which never ceases to leave me utterly confounded despited the many times i've hurt You.

God thank You for the small joys, and the big happy things in my life.

God thank You for the sorrow and the trials, for it is these which make me grow deeper in my relationship with You.

God thank You for the friends that have crossed my path, both old, new, and reacquainted. Lord thank You for the timely arrangements, these friends have been such great support and joy.

God thank You for opportunities, given to me to enrich my life, to help me grow deeper and wider.

God i thank You for my family, thank You thank they have always been so concerned about my wellbeing, even though at times i lose patience with them.

God i thank You for me. thank You for making me special.

God i pray that You reveal Yourself more to me, i want an intimate relationship with You.

God i pray for You to deepen Your work in my life, so that when uni starts, i am firm, rooted, and passionate for You.

God i pray that You will use me greatly, in whatever way You want to.

God i pray that i will be consistent in following You, no matter what hiccups, i pray that i will always come back to You for help.

God i pray for the people around me Lord, i pray that i can be a friend, a daughter, a sister, a support, someone who loves, someone who cares. God i pray that as i try to reflect Your love to them, i pray things will be according to Your will.

God i pray for wisdom, for courage, for patience, for discernment, for obedience, for the ability to love. i pray that in this year, i will grow more in these focal areas Lord.

God i pray that i wont be ashamed of being christian, i pray that i wont feel afraid of showing others that i love and belong to You.

God i pray, most of all, that i will take up my cross everyday, and not give up following You.

a shout of praise.
10:54 PM

Saturday, February 3, 2007: guilty...

i've been hooked onto myspace and its all andrea's fault. go visit!

a shout of praise.
10:59 PM

~~recap.~~

my uber cute, very soft, soft toys (:

felt like posting about the week, but i dont know what to write about it. supposed to be my reflection, but i realise that there's nothing much to reflect about it. its just been rather ordinary. eventful, but not exciting. mmm.

but it was fun and wellspent though. (: i like perth. just not the weather now, its too hot.

oh well. (:

shall blog more when i have sudden inspiration (:

lol.

a shout of praise.
12:54 PM

Friday, February 2, 2007: krispy kremes!

will, who just returned from canberra last night, came aknocking on my door today so i can help him heat up these wonderful creations using the microwave oven before glenna, steph, him and i met for lunch today at broadway. :D this is like the FIRST time ever, seeing these doughnuts which have recieved so much accolades from the people i know studying in melbourne.

and he popped by with not one but TWO boxes!
yummy (:

looks really good hey! (:

the normal sugar glazed ones are really good (the ones on the left) haha. (: my dad ate 3 at one go! not bad, haha, i just had one today. (: have yet to try their cinnamon ones, see if they can beat donut king! hehe (:

went out for lunch with the 3 of them today, and then we sent will to the airport (he's going back to sg, then driving back up to JB - he comes from malaysia), glenna drove! was quite a good time of fellowship, but i was feeling sleepy the whole time, so i fell asleep in the car for the whole journey! might be because of the lack of water. mmm. :\ the weather is getting hot again! its supposed to be a max of 38 degrees today, 41 tmr. my goodness. quite bad eh! need to drink more water asap!

a shout of praise.
3:11 PM

blogsurfing

i've been guilty of blogsurfing again, but this time, i dont feel envious or jealous. i feel a pang of mixed emotions. i feel sad, glad, thankful, peaceful. i think one thing that struck me most this time was the emo-ness of posts. i guess sometimes things hit a low, sometimes things feel like life hasnt no direction, sometimes we all feel there's no reason to be on this earth for. which is true i guess, in the sense that the world is no comfort to our sorrows, the only place we truly belong to is heaven.

but, if you actually think about it, God was the creator of the earth, God made the heavens and the earth, God made the pretty flowers and the nice shady trees, God made the animals, both cute and ugly, God made you and me. we were all in His masterplan. the world really belongs to God, not satan. its the decisions people choose to make, its the life we want to have, its the course of action we rather follow, that has made this world so fallen.

mmm, oh well. we all just need to remember to cling onto the hope that God is faithful and His grace is more than sufficient for us to carry through this lifetime.

which can be difficult when your down in the doldrums.

but, Jesus is the only one that can be the bright shining light in all the darkness surrounding us.

i suppose being on this earth, for me, teaches me to treasure my relationship with Jesus more, even though it can be hard because He's not physically there, but i guess that's what faith is right? faith is believing in what you cannot see, and putting your hope and trust into a person who does nothing to harm, only to do good.

again, the need to read up more on His word so that we can be grounded in our faith and be encouraged to continue and move on, the need for prayer, God listens and understands and He provides the help that we need, the need to love Him, because if we love him, we love the people around us, the way He does.

i was watching criminal intent last night, and this peculiar line struck me. "you can go either way", its is quite true though when you're struggling, you can either choose to hold on to God's promise or the comfort of secular nature. its ultimately a choice that we have to make, and a decision we all struggle with.

and i think, life is just life. it's a gift from the Father, He wants us to live it, in His joy, fullness and freedom, the way He meant it to be. we cling on to the hope that we will eventually get to heaven. and for now, i'll be happy, knowing that God loves me, in a way nobody can match up to. and i know, my life can be exciting, because i have God in my life.

a shout of praise.
9:33 AM

Thursday, February 1, 2007: look what i got!

hahah, went to koorong today to get my new bible (: and also was looking through the poster section and i saw this!

and so i got it! (: its so hilarious i tell you, when i saw it i kept smiling to myself and i think people thought i've gone bonkers or smth. anyway, so its hanging on my wall now, the new addition to The Room (:

by the way i just changed my blog colours and yes, it's rather clashing i know. but teehee! when i decide it's becoming an eyesore, i'll change it. :D so for now, (: bear with it. HAHA

a shout of praise.
4:13 PM